Just got a text from my French bank to tell me I am 43 euros overdrawn, with 23 euros still to come out of my account. How the hell has this happened?
Shit shit shit.
Last night I was reading some of my old blog posts (terribly egotistical of me, I know) and I found one where I'd just got the restaurant job and I said:
I hardly dare to say it for fear of jinxing myself,
but if this pub job works out well, I will be able to pay off my
overdraft and credit card within a few months, plus I might finally
learn how to speak French!
What a fucking self-deluded idiot I am. Eight months later and I am as skint as ever and I still can't speak French. It just goes to show how terrifyingly great and all-conquering the power of Jinxing is.
I'm panicking a little bit now. A lot, actually. I need 1000 euros to take to England, realistically (800 euros of that will be for Ibiza) and I also owe a couple of people money... plus my little brother is coming to stay with me next week and he's a poor student, so I was planning on paying for him when we went out... plus there is my birthday, which I have already decreed will be a huge, hedonistic weekend of celebrations... The Birthday Monster is stirring...
And I need make-up. I need shoes. I need to cut my hair and have a wax.
I just thought I would share all this information with you, because they say a problem shared is a problem halved. Funnily enough my debt has not halved itself since I started writing this blog post.
Bright spot on the horizon- I finally paid my credit card off! So that is one less thing to worry about, I suppose.
Plus next week I am finally getting paid for the drama teaching thing. I don't know how much it will be, originally we said 700 euros but that was when I was going to teach all the lessons by myself... As I've been teaching with the two French actresses, should I assume I'm going to get 350 euros instead? Or will it be less?
Oh fuck. Why do I do this to myself?
How the hell am I going to survive next year without the restaurant job?
On the plus side, it's 10.20 am and I'm out of bed! For once I'm going to be early for work!